Well... it's not over

Hi... I havent' blog in a while maybe im out of inspiration for a while... But know it sucks... I was planning on going in exchange to the US from Puerto Rico but my GPA isn't enough for the semester! I had so many fucking plans!!! It sucks! But still maybe is just for a reason. Im planning to get my grades higher! I wnat to get my GPA higher cuz when i was in highschool i was a straight student... but i think that working and studying sucks a lot! well... I hope the next semester ahead will be a good one!

Twisted

My mind lies in shadows
my soul is now twisted
i found my self again
lost in darkness.

I manage to understand
that forcing you to something
isn't the right way to do it,
i just gave up...

I'm searching in darkness
but is no use...
it's dark...
i'm lost!

I'm now dying in darkness
with no hope
without any breath left...
I died...

I need someone...

Sometimes life is hard to get
you just can't understand it well
I had tried to deal with it
but sometimes I just give up.

Lately my :emotions: are running
confusing me a lot more
Making me feel even worse
I just can handle it anymore.

I need someone...
Someone to love me
someone that cares for me
someone that really care...

Finally all my hopes are gone
all the chances of getting someone vanishes
and my heart broken in million pieces
has just stop beating!

I'm dead...

The Shadow Behind your friendship

Once upon a time we were "siblings"
happily ever after our friendship grew along
now only what is left behind is a shadow
of lies and interest
that slightly destroyed us all

I loved you!
I swear I did...
But your attitude started changing
i wasn't your little brother anymore.

The sword maker came back
and the dark mistress of Ethiopia
took my place in your heart.

You betrayed our master,
stabbing her near the heart.
The mistress enchanted her with a spell
making her vulnerable to your next attack.

The sword maker silently but quickly
used his sword to cut the remaining pieces
that join us all together.

We still love you...
but when you finally realize the damage you have caused
it's going to be late...
Hope you finally realize that we love you...

Beyond the Horizon

At the end of the horizon
lies the path
the one i must choose
the one i must follow...

Behind me are my dreams
my sorrows
my loved ones
But what can you do when you need to move on?

I realize that i have done wrong
I choose dark paths
once in front of me
and my life has been corrupted,
i got lost behind my soul.

My friends are in with this
but for how long?
What should it take for them to leave me behind?
Should I just continue without them?

My questions drive me crazy...
Im almost insane...
I need a quick help, but there's no one around!
What should i do?

I just should leave...
that's all!

Preguntas...

Que hacemos de la vida cuando no sabemos enfrentarla? Donde encontrar soluciones a preguntas sin explicacion? Como solucionar el enigma de la vida? Son preguntas sin respuestas... Que respuesta le das tu?

Poem: Mi pecado

El dia en que mi alma oscurecio
y los cielos se esetremecieron
llegastes sutilmente
quitandome el mas minimo miedo.

Llenastes con confusion mis pensamientos
haciendome sentir desconcierto...
Fue entonces que libere
mis mas remotos deseos carnales
fuindiendome en la lujuria,
llenandome de ansias
consumando el pecado prohibido.

Mi alma se unio a la tuya,
conviertiendose en el dios del deseo.
El placer lleno la tierra
y se multiplicaron los dolores.

El pecado ya fue cometido
ahora solo somos
dos almas en el olvido...