Monologue: Why the Fuck am I running?

Desperately i found my self running...
but from what?
My heart is beating fast
i can't just control it

I keep running...

Everything is dark... i just hear my breathing
I feel the humidity of the place I'm in
I have never been here before

I can't keep running... I don't know why I'm running!
why am I running?

I'm running from my self..
I'm running 'cuz i miss you
I'm running 'cuz my friends love me
should i run 'cuz of that?

What the fuck!
I start running again!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Now I'm falling!

I start to think about why i started running on the first place...

My friend is pissed at me...
My mom knows im bisexual... she thinks im gay
My fucking car is broken!
Fuck im screwed!

Where the heck am i?
Fuck ... nooooooooooooooooooooo

I'm in my fucking mind!

Poem: I thought I just lost you

I thought i just lost you
when you say your last goodbye
when that light shut off
the night you leaved my room

I thought I just lost you
when with hate you regret my care
when you didn't need me
when you pushed me away

I thought I just lost you
when my heart broke in tears
when it hurt like never before
when you leave me all alone

I thought I just lost you
when I found my self alone in my room
when we used to fight
when we used to text...
when we used to IM

I thought I just lost you...

I thought I just lost you...

I thought it...

It was just a nightmare...

Poem: Untouchable

The chance to do it is in front of me
it dares me to go and do it
but im afraid
i just wouldn't

My life has always been boring
but right now its challenging me
impulsive toughts run on my mind
they want me to touch you
but I cant...
You are untouchable

Your eyes hipnotize me
your smell just consumes me
you are a sexual affrodisiac
that make my head wonder!

To be near you is punishment
Because in my heart i just want you
my body needs you
i just desire you
but you are just


Untouchable!

Well... it's not over

Hi... I havent' blog in a while maybe im out of inspiration for a while... But know it sucks... I was planning on going in exchange to the US from Puerto Rico but my GPA isn't enough for the semester! I had so many fucking plans!!! It sucks! But still maybe is just for a reason. Im planning to get my grades higher! I wnat to get my GPA higher cuz when i was in highschool i was a straight student... but i think that working and studying sucks a lot! well... I hope the next semester ahead will be a good one!

Twisted

My mind lies in shadows
my soul is now twisted
i found my self again
lost in darkness.

I manage to understand
that forcing you to something
isn't the right way to do it,
i just gave up...

I'm searching in darkness
but is no use...
it's dark...
i'm lost!

I'm now dying in darkness
with no hope
without any breath left...
I died...

I need someone...

Sometimes life is hard to get
you just can't understand it well
I had tried to deal with it
but sometimes I just give up.

Lately my :emotions: are running
confusing me a lot more
Making me feel even worse
I just can handle it anymore.

I need someone...
Someone to love me
someone that cares for me
someone that really care...

Finally all my hopes are gone
all the chances of getting someone vanishes
and my heart broken in million pieces
has just stop beating!

I'm dead...

The Shadow Behind your friendship

Once upon a time we were "siblings"
happily ever after our friendship grew along
now only what is left behind is a shadow
of lies and interest
that slightly destroyed us all

I loved you!
I swear I did...
But your attitude started changing
i wasn't your little brother anymore.

The sword maker came back
and the dark mistress of Ethiopia
took my place in your heart.

You betrayed our master,
stabbing her near the heart.
The mistress enchanted her with a spell
making her vulnerable to your next attack.

The sword maker silently but quickly
used his sword to cut the remaining pieces
that join us all together.

We still love you...
but when you finally realize the damage you have caused
it's going to be late...
Hope you finally realize that we love you...